God's grace extends to even a righteous sinner

Pain, why does God allow people to live in pain? Why does God allow people to suffer? Why do some people have a blessed life and others have a horrific one? Why in the world has God blessed me so much with parents who love and care for me? Why am I not in poverty? Why has God spared my family members from death while others I know of have to deal with sickness, insanity, and death?

I cannot understand grace. Why has God been so gracious to me? I haven't lived a scandalous life, I avoid those loud temptation, so how have I become this? How have I become a thankful humble servant of the King? The only thing I can say is that God doesn't just save the scandalous sinners, He saves sinners from scandalous sins too. He spared me for a reason and I don't know why. I am extremely thankful, but I wish I knew for what purpose He has me here in this cursed generation.

What I have realized though, is that the more you are like Christ, the more you live a life of self-sacrificing and people serving the more people are drawn to you. I assumed I would be persecuted for this but I really haven't been persecuted for my faith yet. That is something I have yet to experience, and I am curious to know how I respond when it does, but that will come in time. But it is fascinating because as I anchor my spiritual, emotional, and mental foundation on Christ, the more people seem to anchor their lives on me. The more they open up, the more they want to spend time with me. I never asked for this, but apparently it's mostly when I don't ask God purposes for His good and His glory.

I don't know why God has spared and blessed my life and what God has purposed in my life, but I do know I want to make the most of it for HIS glory and I want to help and care for so many people who need to see the love of Christ. I hope I have the opportunity more and more each year and it opens doors to people and places I am not familiar with so God's glory extends to the corners of the earth. :-)