Now this is the test. This is the time to show who a real Christian is. You find out a lot about a person when you put them in a heated situation. I suppose that is where God has put me. They are consequences for my sin that I now have to deal with. This is one of the things I hate most about being a Christian is that when it comes to defining yourself in situations like this where you were also wrong or made a mistake, I can't say, "well at least I don't act like *insert name*" because as Christians the only one we compare ourselves to is Christ and Christ endured a lot of heat from people. I am tempted to get angry and lash back, I'm tempted to act coldly, but neither one of those extremes is helpful. They are all driven by Satan. Even though it hurts to be treated with anger and as a human my first defense is to shout right back, Christ's defense is to turn the other cheek, to fight with your spiritual sword the Bible. This is not a human warfare I am in, this is a spiritual warfare I am in. A human being may be the physical visual I see in this war, but it all has to deal with the soul and who is attacking it. Get behind me Satan. He's tempting me a lot, I gotta mortify this sin before it takes control. I feel the burden on my heart right now.
I think the Sabbatical I took for the past three days was extremely helpful for me, because now I'm on the battlefield. I don't know what God is doing, maybe He's saying to me, "I've trained you enough, you need to start fighting now and not hiding" I know His hand is beside me, but how can He help me if I don't do anything about it? How can God give a hand when I won't even start? It is time to start, it is time to have faith and go out and continue on the journey He has placed in my life, I just pray that I am not being deceived by the evil one as I make my decisions. I just pray God will grant me peace through this time though.
It is armor of God time...
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